Well, today is a special day...not a day to celebrate...or may be yes? NO! YES, i will celebrate the Lords kindness to me trough so many years and people. My daughter Mariana had this beautiful heart cake backed on a plate when i came home from one of my most difficult doctor appointments. It did not say: welcome to the circle of cancer patients....Just MUM...At this point i still do hate the word cancer...I had to read my "pathology report" over and over.....and eventhough the nurse read me the thing over the phone 10 days ago there is this secret thought that it is all a missunderstanding. But anyhow it is nearly midnight and my artsy friend Jorden visited and we were talking about the human heart. Suddenly I had this picture popping up in my head: the human heart is like jellow...if the Lord does not poor it into a strong jellow mold or pan...fancy shape?...it will just spill over in all wrong directions.It was acctualy good getting so many calls today...Dan from Switzerland, sis, Karen, Frank Dr. Tim from California - explaining all the fancy pathology words. Before this i didn't even understand the proper translation of Lymphoma!
So this is the next painting i would like to do about the human heart...the ones below are more how the Holy Spirit guards and influences our hearts....penetrates it with his light. So half of me is truely soaring in the spirit realm and the other is worring a bit if I will not be able to eat Swiss chocolate anymore, no toast, no cappuccino, no meat ...thank you God that I love carrot juice...but it is a real spiritual fast to drink that that beautiful orange color stuff all day long. I'll crave pizza in the evening. Should i switch to lentils with tofu? Anyhow am tired now and can only think of the song YOUR LOVING KINDNESS IS BETTER THAN LIVE. I learned it over 30 years ago....still love the melody. I see myself doing cart wheals :)
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